What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 03.07.2025 03:45

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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She wouldn,t have been !

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Who is the king of Hollywood?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Who then, do I blame.?

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He knew the spot.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I will be 64.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Have you ever had sex with your mother-in-law? If so, how was it and did your wife ever find out?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Comes on , in middle age.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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I was 9 years of age.

I waited trembling.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I write beautiful poetry .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

What was the most inappropriate thing your parent caught you doing as a teen? Was in the bedroom, I thought nobody else was home. My sister and I shared that bedroom but I knew she was gone. I didn’t know my dad was home though.

Put me off passion for life!!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

How do I become a Buddhist, and can someone explain Buddhism to me?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

When she asked me how she looked .

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

This is soul school!.

I was seconnd youngest,

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She loved him until the end.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She was in good health!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He was dying to do it , i knew.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I have no regrets .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I think the readers, may guess!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I was very sick at this time too.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

So, i spoilt her more .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

(And it was in our own minds.)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I said to her

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I couldn’t, believe it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So whats the point in blame.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My family never makes their pension either.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

What did i know ?

Why did i forgive my father ?

We were not on the streets..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But it wasn’t much.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One cannot live in the past .

Ive learnt so much.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Would this be the day?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But ive been too sick for many years..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

All the time i was locked up.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And i lived it daily.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She married twice! .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My life is so biszare .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Im still living with it.

She found it foreign!.

I don,t even have a pension.

We all went to grammer schools

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But, we were locked up after school.

I was scared of men, in general

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

It was going to be , some day.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.